Jeremiah 29:13, New Living Translation

“If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.”

He is with me every step of the way (Part Five)

So, for forty years, I was locked into an unequally yoked marriage, trying to raise my two children to know and love the Lord.  In April of 2020, my husband was released from this earth, and I believe, taken home to be with the Lord. My husband never did turn into the Christian man I had hoped he would be. He was a good provider, but he was an obstacle in mine and my children's walk. 

Now I am free to pursue my Jesus, music, and God’s purpose for my life. Since his passing I have received three different prophecies, all pointing to basically the same thing. I am doing my best to walk toward fulfilling the words spoken over me. May God have his way with the rest of my life here on earth without any further interruption. 

So now, here I am, aged 64 taking voice/piano and still learning to play guitar. Still dreaming and believing that God has a purpose for all this. 

I would like to add at this point that my dad is eighty-four years old. I was born just about half an hour before his twenty birthday. There have been times when I have felt extreme hatred for him, over his violation. But overall, my dad has been a very good man and daddy. I don’t really understand why he acted the way he did. I was told that he had an illness. He has confessed that he was trying to teach us something about adulthood that he and my mom, were never taught. He wanted mom to talk to us about it, but she was unable/unwilling. So he did what he somehow thought was necessary?

The word says that we must forgive. I believe God has been teaching me to look past the hurts, heartaches and hindrances. He has helped me to forgive my dad and is continuing to heal my soul.

I believe my dad knows about Jesus but has turned away for some event in his own life. I continue to lift him up in prayer. I don’t want to see my dad go to hell. So I had to forgive him and love him.

Thank you, Jesus, for being with me every step of the way.