Coria Brock
October 26, 2024
2 Timothy 2:13, New International Version
“If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.”
God Is The Fruitful One. Part One
Is it easy to be still and learn about God? Jesus said, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” (Matthew 11:28-29, NIV)
When I was first learning how to “be still”, the voices from the world would always start to whisper into my ear about being “lazy,” and would also remind me about all of the bills that needed to be paid. I didn’t know how to rest my heart in Jesus, my Lord, even when He told me to do so.
One day, I got a phone call from one of my previous workmates. He asked me to join his team as he was working for a big corporate company. When I met with him, I shared my story. He told me that I was foolish and that I was being an irresponsible mother for my son.
Was I being foolish? I knew it was impossible for those who did not know Christ to understand what was going on in my life. It was even hard for those who did know Him. But one thing he said hit my heart, about being an irresponsible mother. So, I told him that I would consider the offer if the salary matched what I was asking for.
When I got back home after the meeting, I prayed and asked God to give me confirmation by making the final offer match what I had asked for. The next morning, he called me back, but the offer was less than what I had asked for. How should I respond? I ignored the confirmation that I had asked Jesus for, and agreed to join my friend’s team. Did I intentionally ignore it? If I am being honest, then the answer is yes. I ignored it, because stress and guilt made me choose the easier way. Before I went to sign the employment contract, I asked God again if it was His will for me to take the job. I knew in my heart what He was answering. He had said “No”, and I had no peace.
The next morning, I went to the office and as I was waiting in the lobby to sign the contract. I closed my eyes and said, “God, should I sign the contract?” I heard His voice, “If you have faith in Me, leave now.” How terrible is the heart of man? My response to my God was to say, “Sorry.” I told Him that I could not say no to sign the contract because of my fear, and I proceeded to sign.
What were the consequences for my disobedience to what the Lord Jesus had told me to do? The peace that I had in my heart and mind from Him was gone. I kept my head down and did my work, but even though I knew I would have income for my bills, sadness and anxiety never left me. I no longer had hope or joy, I could not rest when I laid down at night, because my heart was grieving due to the rejection I had shown to my Lord, who loved me.
Please come back next week to read, “God Is The Fruitful One,” Part Two.
(Book: my life is His testimony)