2 Timothy 2:13, New International Version

“If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.”

God Is The Fruitful One Part Two

After I had completed my first week of work, I got on my knees and prayed to the Lord. I had to be honest that I needed God more than anything else. I asked God, “Forgive me, if this is not Your will for me to work, then I will quit this job when I go back to the office on Monday.” His voice responded immediately and said, “I already told you three times.” After I heard that, the story of how Peter had denied Jesus three times came into my mind. I realized in that very moment how I had broken Jesus’s heart. Wasn’t I the one who had said that I would never hurt myself again, because I knew how much it hurt Jesus? How unfaithful I was in that I had hurt Him again without even realizing it.

When I went to the office on Monday, I explained to my friend who had hired me that I would not continue working, and I asked for his forgiveness. He asked me to explain and I told him what had occurred. There was no doubt that he felt shocked when he heard my answer, and he refused to accept it as a logical answer. He went and got some “Christians” who were also working there, and asked them to talk with me in the meeting room. These “Christians” did not believe Jesus spoke to people today. They also believed that the Lord would not tell me such a thing, even if He did speak.

As they spoke, I remembered that the Bible says, “But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.” (1 Peter 3:15-16, NIV) I shared with them how I had come to know Christ, and the path He had been leading me on. At this point, my friend who had made the comment about me being an irresponsible mother, asked me the same question again, “Shouldn’t you be a responsible mother and make sure the future of your child is safe and good?” I believe God gave me His wisdom and I replied by saying, “Who can truly make sure their children will have a good future? As a parent, we may help to choose a better school or take care of their needs, but from the moment they step onto the school bus can we truly ensure they are safe? Or, can we control what kind of friends they will make and ensure that they will never be hurt as a result of a relationship? We can’t, but God can. What is the reason that we would doubt that His way would be better? Does God make mistakes?” Right after I had given this response, my friend replied saying, “Coria, my brother-in-law is actually a pastor, but I never go to his church…I think this is the time I should go.” A few years later I met him again and he told me that he had become a Christian. Does our God make mistakes? Never! He turned my disobedient action into His blessing to others, and an opportunity for His testimony to grow. He says, “If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.” (2 Timothy 2:13, NIV)

After I had failed three times just as Peter did, God forgave me in the same way. He also did not give up on me, but had me continue to do His work and live in the purpose He had for me. After I walked out of the meeting room, God placed a Christian sister into my mind. I picked up the phone and called her. She said, “I had been praying for a week that you would go with me to visit the orphans in Luoyang, China.”

In God, there is never a coincidence. Everything happens according to His goodwill and purpose for each of us. God had me use my experience to assist the sister who had an orphanage charity organization. Also, my pastor asked me to oversee the church, while he pioneered a new fellowship. The Lord led me to testify in different churches and conferences and called me to be an Editor of a website called “Witness HK”. He called me to go to other countries to bring His love to the people there. God also led me to start a new family church called “Abba Army” (Abba is a Hebrew word for “Father.” )

He answered my prayer that many would call me “Mama Coria”, and that I would love them with a mother’s heart. Yes, He gave me a new heart. That evening as I prayed, I pictured myself cutting out my heart and giving it to Jesus. When I did this, Jesus came to me in a vision and showed me that He replaced my old heart with a new one. The new one was pink and looked like a crystal.

How faithful is our God? When we realize and admit that we are faithless, then we will understand crystal clear.

(Book: My Life is His Testimony)